I do not seem to be able to think about anything but my loved one. I keep projecting all the “what ifs” and how my life “could have been.” All the old hurts and anger keep pouring in. I keep thinking how stupid I was. Why didn’t I do this or that? There are days when my old enemy, fear, consumes me, sometimes for no apparent reason. Something has brought back old memories and fear has taken over. I am ready for a change. It takes courage to transcend the fear-based isolation I make. For so long, I have stayed away from friends and avoided others. This program gives me the courage to make a call to a Nar-Anon friend. I can re-establish old acquaintances and make new friendships. I had been alone for so long that it was difficult to change. Now, I can draw on the Nar-Anon program for the courage to dial that first number. I need not fear, fear itself, but I can use the tools of the Nar-Anon program to get through this period by going to more meetings, calling program people, writing and meditating. Then, I am not left alone with the fear. There is hope. There is a power that can help me to concentrate on the reality of today. The Nar-Anon program teaches me how to stop belittling myself, guides me to love myself, and heals the old wounds. I am experiencing freedom from my past feelings, thoughts, and fears.
Thought for Today: Hope keeps me company in times of fear.
“You are no longer alone.” ~ Nar-Anon Twelve Step Slogan