My need to be in control had caused me to obsess with worry about the future and to have regrets of the past. When the addict was out using, I would mistakenly fixate on what I had done that had caused the addict to use, and what I could do to make sure that it did not happen again. I would be consumed with worry over what was going to happen next. Would he end up in jail, in a hospital? Would the chaos of him being out again be more than I could fix this time? What was I going to do? What was I going to do?
Nar-Anon offers slogans such as “One Day at a Time” that allow me to remove myself from regrets of the past and worries over the future. This particular slogan reminds me that I need to accept the past then let it go. I have no control over the future. Worrying about what might happen will not change the course of events. I am not in charge. I have a Higher Power who will take care of me if I ask and get out of the way.
Thought for Today: I have been given the gift of today by my Higher Power. I have a choice to accept this gift and follow my Higher Power’s will or to stay obsessed in the past and future and try to exert my will. Through many futile attempts at pushing my will to no avail, I can now receive the gift of today and take pleasure in the time that I have.
“Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” ~ Buddha