My need to be in control had caused me to obsess with worry about the future and to have regrets of the past. When the addict was out using, I would mistakenly fixate on what I had done that had caused the addict to use, and what I could do to make sure that it did not happen again. I would be consumed with worry over what was going to happen next. Would he end up in jail, in a hospital? Would the chaos of him being out again be more than I could fix this time? What was I going to do? What was I going to do…
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