When I heard that my area was sponsoring a Fourth Step weekend, I knew that God had decided that it was time for me to attend. Never in my wildest dreams did I realize what I would uncover about myself when I got there. Working Step Four gave me an understanding of who I really was and what I needed to do to continue my path of recovery in Nar-Anon. I determined that in order for me to get the full benefit of working Step Four, I would need to move on to Step Five, “Admitted to God, to myself and to another human being the exact nature of my wrongs.” What a wonderful healing experience it is to share with a sponsor or fellow member of Nar-Anon what I have learned about myself!
Admitted to God: Because of this step, I am more open to the presence of God in my life and the guidance I receive from him. Today, I can not only admit my wrongs to God, but I can thank him for giving me the lessons I needed to learn. I am where God wants me to be. I could not apply this program without my Higher Power’s presence. As I admitted my wrongs to God, I felt the healing taking place.
Admitted to myself: The key to Step Five for me was admitting who I am to myself. I had to be totally honest. I could try to fool others, but I could not fool myself, and I certainly could not fool God. I have found a better understanding of myself when I am open-minded enough to accept my shortcomings and realize that I need help.
Admitted to another human being: When I share my thoughts with another Nar-Anon member, and experience no condemnation for my actions or feelings, I feel very grateful and humbled. I felt only love, concern, and acceptance after taking this step.
Thought for Today: In the years since, I have taken my inventory many times and have found hidden qualities, characteristics and weaknesses that God has helped me channel into strengths and new abilities that I did not know I had. I am glad I have the Twelve Steps to continue learning about myself and improving my life in the process.
“The vision must be followed by the venture. It is not enough to stare up the steps – we must step up the stairs.” ~ Vance Havner