During my Fourth Step, I cleared the way for self-understanding by examining my strengths and weaknesses and listing them. Then I looked at Step Five and once again was intimidated. However, as I gathered the courage to bare my soul, I realized that I had already completed two thirds of the Fifth Step. Step Five asks that we “admit to God, ourselves and another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.”
When I took Step Two, I came to believe that “a Power greater than myself could restore me to sanity.” If my Higher Power could do that, I realized I did not need to admit again, for the sake of my Higher Power, the exact nature of my wrongs. My Higher Power already knows of my wrongs.
Through the process of writing a searching and fearless moral inventory, I was admitting to myself the exact nature of my wrongs. Yes, I had virtues, but I also saw traits that I did not like. The only other thing left to do was to admit my shortcomings to another human being. Like many members of the Nar-Anon family, I chose to share my character defects with my sponsor. My sponsor has many years in the program and was there when I first came to Nar-Anon. At the beginning, many of my wrongs were the very behaviors I thought were the right things to do.
Thought for Today: When I admit my wrongs, I am making room for change. I am clearing the debris of the past and opening the door for a better future and a better me.
“Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage and confidence in the doing.” ~ Paul Tillich