Last night I read a newsletter published by Nar-Anon. The article listed some ways to get the most out of the Nar-Anon message. One that jumped out at me was that I should keep a journal about my thoughts and concerns. This would help me get my emotions and feelings out so that I could move on. When I started keeping a journal on the events that had dominated my life for over a year, I mainly kept a running log of events that occurred in the addict’s life. As I was growing in the program, the journal started to reflect my thoughts on the message of Nar-Anon – not so much on her problems. My writing now reflects how I deal with addiction, not what the addict is doing.
During the previous trials in my life, I did not think they would be going on for years on end. I now realize, thanks to Nar-Anon, that addiction will be there for the rest of my life, whether the addict is in recovery or still using. I am reminded of those who do not attend the meetings on a regular basis, but only when things get tough. The Nar-Anon readings tell me that if I want to learn how to deal with addiction, I must attend the meetings to share and to help others, and to hear something that might make a difference in my life. Selfishly, I attend the meetings for me. I want relief. I want healing. I want to move on. This is where I need to be.
Thought for Today: Without the experience, strength and hope of the program, I easily become a victim of denial. I want to believe that the problem has solved itself, even though at gut level I know that this is not so.
“The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today. Let us move forward with strong and active faith.” ~ Franklin Roosevelt