“E quindi uscimmo a riveder le stele” – (And so we emerged again to see the stars). This Latin phrase is the last line of Dante’s Inferno. After attending Nar-Anon meetings for more than one year, I am beginning to feel as if I have emerged. Out of the darkness, I can once again see the twinkling of the stars, both literally and figuratively.
I spoke with one of the members about how the little things in life that used to make me angry just do not seem to be that important anymore. I have been thinking about this aspect of the Nar-Anon message since I am beginning to see the stars. When I was first dealing with the disease of addiction, I did not see any light. All that enveloped me was darkness and despair. I did not notice the stars at night. In fact, I did not see the light of day, even though I was outside.
The little things in life that used to upset me are still there, but by working the Twelve Steps of Nar-Anon, they are no longer a source of anger. I have been able to put those little irritants into perspective and realize that in the grand scheme of things, my anger was not warranted. I am amazed that I can truly see and appreciate the light of day and the peacefulness of looking at the stars at night.
Thought for Today: While the addict may still be out there using and hurting herself, my perspective about how I should be dealing with her has made all the difference in the world. I am learning that I have absolutely no control over her, and I need to concentrate on my survival.
“Just to be is a blessing. Just to live is holy.” ~ Abraham Joshua Heschel