I have often wondered if this is going to be me for the rest of my life. Who would have thought that I would be attending meetings on how to overcome the darkness that an addict brings to my life and to have the courage and determination to continue with the meetings week after week, month after month and for some, year after year.
Recently, the addict came to our house with a look of desperation; she looked physically terrible. Here I was with my drug-induced daughter who cannot force herself to get some help, even though I know she does not want to be controlled by this disease of addiction. This time the old feelings of desperation and darkness did not take hold of my soul and being. Prior to Nar-Anon, I would not have believed this was possible. Prior to Nar-Anon, I would have been angry, upset, shaking, physically sick and much more.
I think of yesterday and thank my Higher Power for guiding me to Nar-Anon. No longer do I have the thought that “this is me for the rest of my life” when I think about attending Nar-Anon meetings. I would be dishonest to myself if I said that I would rather be doing something else such as sitting back resting after a long day or enjoying some time with family. I have come to realize that my life could be a lot worse than attending Nar-Anon meetings.
Thought for Today: I have come to enjoy the company of others who are in the same boat as me. I also enjoy the feeling that maybe something I say can make a difference in another person’s journey through his or her darkness and desperation.
“The fragrance always stays in the hand that gives the rose.” ~ Hada Bejar