I am sitting here in a Nar-Anon meeting by myself, not feeling alone. I have checked the literature supply, written a notice for the local newspaper, read the thought for the day, and read part of A Guide for the Family of the Addict and Drug Abuser. I am so grateful to the people that were here when I needed them; so starting a group is one of the ways I can give back.
I remember my old behavior and habits. My busy mind was always going a hundred miles an hour. I wondered where the kids were, if they went to school, if they were fighting, if my husband was using, did he sneak home, were the kids high, would their dad catch them using, what did they do, or say, and what would happen tomorrow? Today in Nar-Anon, my mind moves in one direction at a comfortable pace, one day at a time.
It is such a relief to know that I do not have to make decisions for others. I am not responsible for their actions, or whether they choose to use or stay clean. Sometimes, I think that it is easy for me to say that since my family members are all clean. Then I would start to wonder how I would handle it if that were not the case. A dear friend reminded me “A day at a time – don’t worry about what may happen tomorrow, because those worries may never come to be.”
Thought for Today: I like myself. Today I can be of service in Nar-Anon and not take charge. Today I can find something to be grateful for in my life. Today I love my husband and my children. Today I believe in a Power greater than myself, and without this program, I would not be where I am. Through total faith, I became ready to let these changes happen within me.
“It is only possible to live happily ever after on a day-to-day basis.” ~ Margaret Bonnano