I have a problem with living in the here and now, just for today. It took me a long time but I finally realized that I could not cure my addicted husband and I separated from him. With four small children, I felt that it was okay for other members of the fellowship to live one day at a time, but I had to think of the future of my kids. What if they blame me for their father’s drug use just as he does? What if they become addicts themselves? Could I be Mommy and Daddy for them? I read something recently that finally changed my mind:
“As we focus on the present moment, we live it deeper, and we derive a satisfaction that we did not know when we were regretting the past and worrying about the future. Whatever happens now is all I can manage and all I need.” ~ Food for Thought by Elisabeth L.
Sure, I still worry once in a while, but that is fine as long as I do not let it consume me. Now I ask myself, “Are my children happy today? Is there anything I can do to make this day a better memory for them?”
I think the reason I can do this is that I am finally at peace with where I am now and who I am. I am grateful for today, for right now.
Thought for Today: I will live in the here and now. I cannot see the future and I may glance back at the past, but I will not stare.
“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson