I do not know if I have yet learned how to let go, or if I ever will. Lately, I have been concentrating on myself and not focusing on the addict. This seems to be helping me. Before Nar-Anon, my mind was always going a-mile-a-minute. Today, I no longer feel the emotional turmoil I once felt. The suffering is still there but does not seem to dominate me as it did before. In letting go, I am learning how to concentrate on myself. For some, this may seem cruel, but they do not understand. They do not know that emotions can destroy us if not kept in check. They do not understand there is nothing I can do for the addict as long as he does not want any help. I feel that my resolve to let go is a sign that the Nar-Anon principles are finally beginning to work for me. I realize that I am able to let go, and move on with my life, loving my son and hating the drugs that he uses. I have thought for some time now, that I may never get over this situation, but I am learning how to deal with this terrible time in my life. I ask God to help me to let go entirely so that I may continue to heal.
Thought for Today: We can make progress by changing from rejection to releasing with love without doing it perfectly. Gradual effort, one day at a time, will eventually get me entirely ready to have my defects removed.“Some people think that it’s holding on that makes one strong. Sometimes it’s letting go.” ~ Sylvia Robinson