I started attending Nar-Anon meetings because everything that I had attempted to do in an effort to change my daughter had failed. My life was spinning out of control. During the past year, through Nar-Anon, I realized that I could not change the addict; the only person I could change was me! I had started to drop out of life, but now I know that is not the way to deal with her addiction. This year I am determined to get on with living my life. Losing my daughter to drugs is similar to losing a loved one in a tragic accident. She is gone and I miss her, but I need to get a grip on myself and move on with my life. Listening to others share how they cope with having a loved one who is an addict, helps me to realize that I do have much to be thankful for in my life. In the back of my mind, I do have hope that some day my daughter will see the light and get better. I also have hope that some day she will recover and come back into my life. I have learned from Nar-Anon that life is full of twists and turns. I have also learned that I need to have hope and not expectations, because having expectations is the source of the fear and anxiety that in the past had taken over my life. On the other hand, I also hope that I will have the courage to deal with the absence of my daughter, and not let those fears and doubts move back into my life. I have no idea what the future will bring. I will live just for today.
Thought for Today: I hope that just for today I will not let this situation destroy me. I will try to do something that will bring me some type of joy, however small, and I will ask God to make me a better person.“Hope is great. And hope supported by faith creates an unbeatable duo.” ~ Meditations for People Who (May) Worry Too Much