I have learned in Nar-Anon that feelings just are. One day I decided it was time for me to start thawing out. I was ready to feel the feelings I had frozen for so many years. It was time to face the reality of drug addiction and confront it head on. I realized that having someone I love seriously addicted to drugs was like feeling the death of that person. At the very least, it feels like the death of my dreams for that person and me. All the feelings of sadness and pain came to the surface. I knew I had been stuffing them for too long. It was time to grieve this loss and start living the only life I have to live, my own. I was ready to start my journey of recovery.
If others choose to avoid help and let addiction ruin their lives, then so be it. It will make me sad; it may anger me, disgust me, and make my heart ache. It is okay to feel these feelings today, as long as I do not stay there very long. With the support of the Nar-Anon fellowship, I will keep my grace and dignity and I will hold on to some kind of happiness. My contentment will not come from things I cannot control; it will come from my inner self.
Thought for Today: I am willing to try, even though at times I will fail. I will also succeed and try some more. Through it all, I will make progress. This is the time I need to be patient with myself. Soon I will grow stronger and wiser because of my willingness to work a good program and attend meetings on a consistent basis.
“Let no feeling of discouragement prey upon you, and in the end you are sure to succeed.” ~ Abraham Lincoln