I am a double winner, an addict and a grateful member of Nar-Anon. I trust today when I end up somewhere by accident that I am right where I need to be. I still struggle with my fierce desire to control. It proves to me that my disease is alive and well, even if I am not using.
I was at a Narcotics Anonymous and Nar-Anon convention with my sister who has been teetering on the edge of recovery after being court-ordered to the program. The first night, we walked to a meeting where there were three hundred recovering addicts. My sister decided that it was too much for her and went to a bar and got trashed. She spent her first day at the convention hung-over in our hotel room with the curtains drawn shut. I called my sponsor and my support group and they all agreed that I did not need to bring her bacon & eggs as she requested, but could enjoy my day as I had planned.
The next day, I told her about my plans and invited her to an open meeting. To my surprise, she wanted to go. The speaker was funny and I could see my sister laughing and relating. I could also see that I needed to continue to let her go and turn her over to her Higher Power. I know any control from me, positive or negative, would get in the way. I have to trust that her Higher Power is watching over her and that she has her own bottoms to hit. It is all a learning process.
Thought for Today: Recovery is a journey we can share, but each person must make their own decision on whether they want to take the trip.
“There is guidance for each of us, and by lowly listening we shall hear the right word.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson