I am practicing detachment with love, and it is helpful to me. I no longer stay up nights worrying about my daughter sleeping in alleys. I no longer obsess about where she is at any given time. I no longer worry about my phone ringing at three in the morning, advising me she is in jail again. My heart goes out to my daughter when she calls to tell me she is hungry, but because of my Nar-Anon program, I no longer have to drop everything and rush out to buy her a meal. All of this is painful to me but I am learning how to deal with it. I know that when I detach from the addict’s drama, I improve my life, as well as hers.
While my heart still aches, I no longer am in constant pain. My stomach is no longer in knots 24/7. While I think of her often, I try to concentrate more on my needs than hers. I am concentrating on my career more. I am learning how to deal with pain so I can experience peace and serenity in my life.
I am far from perfect. I have faults to address. I know my impatience requires considerable attention. As I work on this and other defects, I feel better, not only about myself, but in general.
Thought for Today: As I lovingly detach from the addict’s problems, I can take the time to look at my own defects. I am working on the only person I can change – myself.
“Everyone has heard the expression, ‘what you sow is what you reap.’ Obviously if we want to create happiness in our lives, we must learn to sow the seeds of happiness. Therefore karma implies the action of conscious choice-making.” ~ Deepak Chopra