Many mornings I wake up full of fear. My fears are not based on my present circumstances, as I am safe and warm in my bed. My thoughts are either in the past, replaying some situation, or in the future, worrying about what might happen. I am usually focused on someone else. An example of this is when the addict has been out all night or using for days, and although I have not heard from him, I am already afraid. I am worried about what this latest binge may bring. All I want to do is roll-up in a ball and hide under the covers. Today, I know I can choose to use my Nar-Anon program and find an answer that helps me throw back the covers, get out of bed and get on with my life.
The Nar-Anon program suggests there is a better way to live. At Nar-Anon meetings, I learn fear is a lack of faith. I now know that yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is the present. Living this day fully is the one sure way for me to have a life. Most importantly, I know I am not alone. I have a Higher Power who is my “partner in this business of living.” I can finish my prayers and start my day with confidence and determination. I find relief when I trust in my program and a Power greater than myself. I can replace fear with faith.
Thought for Today: When I am full of fear, I read my Nar-Anon literature and take a few minutes to quietly ask for guidance. I need only be willing to try a new way of living and to trust.“Just for today I will try to live through this day only, and not tackle my whole life problem at once. I can do something for twelve hours that would appall me if I felt that I had to keep it up for a lifetime.” ~ Nar-Anon Blue Booklet