Have you ever wondered what it means to hear a “still small voice”? There are many times I have trouble sleeping. It seems my mind wants to go into overdrive when I lay down. Many a night I lie awake, tossing and turning, full of worry. I keep thinking about my addicted son. Is he okay, or is he on the verge of another relapse? To find some peace and serenity, first I must remind myself that when I lie down at night, I have all of the day’s business still floating around in my mind. Next, I remind myself that the day is over, and that I am reliving a past that I cannot change. I ask my Higher Power to help me let it go. These are only my thoughts and interpretations of the day’s events that are causing me to worry. They are not real and cannot be trusted. In addition, by worrying about a relapse my son has not even had, I fear the future. I need to stay in the present moment. I then recite a first person version of Step One: “I admit I am powerless over the addict and my life has become unmanageable.”
I make a decision to use this restless night as a “reason” to pray for my son. In doing so, I let go and turn him over to his Higher Power. I listen carefully for the “still small voice” of my Higher Power. It is not long before I am free of worry and fear, which has now been replaced with faith.
Thought for Today: I believe that faith is strength that I can feel if I am listening to my Higher Power. I believe a Power greater than myself will speak to me with a “still small voice” when I am quiet enough.
“Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase.” ~ Martin Luther King Jr.