I spent seven years trying desperately to hang on to my life and sanity. By the time I finally reached out for help and discovered Nar-Anon, I was very close to both murder and suicide. Like a drug addict, I had to reach a bottom that was so painful and humiliating that I could not go on without help from my Higher Power. A good friend in recovery took me to my first meeting and the people I met there told me to keep coming back. What I heard that first night and many nights after that, was that I needed to detach with love and quit trying to change my husband. This was not what I came there to hear. They were supposed to tell me how to save him, not how to let him suffer and possibly die. It took a long, long time for me to comprehend what they were telling me; that my “helping” was what was keeping him from seeking recovery. He had no reason to stop using if he could use me to make his continued using possible. Four and a half years ago, he finally reached a bottom that he did not have the stamina to overcome. He asked for help and went into recovery. Thanks to Nar-Anon and his recovery program, today we live a fairly normal existence, as long as we go regularly to our meetings to be around people who have suffered as we have and found a way out.
Thought for Today: I will not interfere and prevent the consequences of active addiction because in doing so I am standing in the way of recovery.
“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson