I have learned that addiction is a disease. It may never go away, but with the help of my Higher Power, I can learn to accept it and then try to live with it.
I once heard that addicts needed special help when they were ready for recovery. Immediately, I agreed because this was what I wanted to hear, so I enabled, paid her debts, and manipulated her through her crises, thinking that this would keep her clean. What I did not realize is that I was doing this with expectations. When it did not work, I became angry.
Going to Nar-Anon meetings, I learned about the effects of manipulating and enabling. Thanks to the program, I am able to make decisions and set boundaries in my own way, and in my own time. I believe that by dealing with the suffering and challenges in my life, with dignity and courage, ultimately good will come from it, even though it may not always be apparent to me. I think of this often, and it helps me get through the day. I know that I am getting better and that there is still a long way to go, but the slogan One Day at a Time gives me courage, strength and hope.
Thought for Today: By working the program of Nar-Anon, I am able to live with the disease of addiction without it destroying me. I am able to move on with my life. My life now consists of living with an addict and her problems, but I can choose to not allow her problems to affect me. My dark anger and condescending attitude is no longer present.
“The shortest way to do many things is to do only one at a time.” ~ Sydney Smiles